A day in the life.

My bestest friend on the planet suggested that I blog about what it is like, living and functioning with my bipolar 1 disorder. What I experience, how my behavior might fluctuate, how I respond to others, what I am thinking. How difficult it is for me to function or expected to be rather, high functioning. …

Six the Musical-A trip with the doodle

Took Ella last friday night to see Six the Musical. It was an amazing experience. I finally have someone to watch shows with. I was beyond ecstatic witnessing this show that I have wanted to see for some time. But even more so, I loved seeing Ella fall in love with everything, the atmosphere, the …

County Fair Food and Fun in FL

Sunday we took the girls to the fair. The girls rode the rides, I ate a turkey leg, and simultaneously combusted from temporarily losing my pre-teen and her friend to the fair gods. It all started with Jason and Hazel going to see the animals, per Hazel’s request. I offered to take Ella and her …

Ashworth’s takeover Flo-RIDA

It has been a great time with the Ashworth clan this weekend. They came down Thursday for the holiday weekend to witness Ella’s RCIA Catholic baptism and Communion this evening at the church. My parents, my siblings, my nephew and the dog, Max all came down from Baltimore, Maryland for the occasion. They booked an …

So Worthy

There is an app. Called so worthy. I checked it out. It’s a self awareness journaling platform. It is also a resale platform for jewelry. How do I know this…I used it once to resale a ring recently. They took care of everything it was a great experience. So it has many interpretations. Does it …

To be at peace with self

We live in a society that is obsessed with being thin. Whatever it might be called “fat phobia” or otherwise, when life gets tough, to try this or that diet or exercise regime. Fat phobia has become so ingrained in our culture that it is almost unrecognizable to the naked eye. Today’s diet culture doesn’t …

Everything is going to be okay

Sometime the simplest concept is the most difficult to practice. Today my best friend, shared an album with me that I immediately dismissed. Its message is one of positivity, and just that being okay. At first I had this preconceived notion, judged the material, the album. When I settled into the beat a little more …

The results are in…

I received a grade for one of my classes, the Group Psychotherapy class. We recently had a midterm exam, one that took me almost the complete amount of time, 4 hours allotted total to take it. I took 231 minutes out of 240 minutes. I wrote 2,737 words during those 231 minutes. This class in …

Obstacles or Opportunities

There are two ways to look at the world. Albeit some gray areas. Your view can be one full of obstacles. Or it might be full of untapped opportunities. I think it is all too easy to accept the former mentioned. Living with bipolar disorder it is too easy to accept that life is working …

Weekend Recap

There were many celebrations to be had this past weekend. Hubby and the girls helped close out my birthday month Saturday with a gargantuan German chocolate cake and presents. My dear friends celebrated their wedding and had a beautiful reception yesterday. I managed to study, and submit! my big mid term exam for my group …

Deadlifts and Drama

I have a history of back injuries. From weight lifting strains, to a bad car accident in my 20s, to years of bad posture— I have managed back pain through the years. Lately as I near my 40th birthday, my back was again aggravated after an intense 5 days of workouts this week. Now I …

Its nearly Pisces season, SG’s 40th bday month celebration.

I have had a growing fascination with zodiacs and horroscopes of late. It is February 16th, several days from offical Pisces season. I was born Februray 28th, on a leap year, at 11pm at night. A closely-identifying Pisces personality I look forward to the reminder to celebrate my sign. Pisces is a water sign. It …

Cultural Awareness

I have never critically analyzed the origins of my world views. As I begin my pursuit as a social worker, I was asked to reflect on my cultural background. Growing up in white suburban and rural areas, and attending private Catholic schools I grew up in a bubble where I noticed differences in my life …

It’s Christmas Time in Orange Park

The holidays are always a whirlwind here with the Grants. Now in Orange Park, Florida it is a balmy 65 degrees. Everyone is in good health, with some viruses looming the previous few days. Presents are wrapped, cookies are baked and decorated. Jason being retired now, having him home and not deployable gives us a …

National Adoption Day

Admittedly certain days working in child welfare are extremely difficult. There are days that you’ll get yelled at, tasked with investigating and put in uncomfortable situations. There are long nights, many court reports to write, calls to make and children to visit. Then there are days like today. It is National Adoption Day. For the …